Monday, February 8, 2010

A Tiger Graveyard


I don't remember the last time I was in Tiger Stadium, but considering the last game there was played in the summer of '99, I couldn't have been older than eleven. But, I don't know if I saw a game there that season, or even the one before that. Nor do I remember how many times I went there as a child, though it was certainly more than a dozen. None of those times really differentiate themselves from one another, not for a kid that young. I remember third baselines, green grass and white uniforms, but nothing all that concrete. Not wins and losses or opposing teams. The one memory which truly stands out is of the stadium's low-ceilinged tunnels that seemed to me then like some sort of primeval caves.


As a kid the ballpark itself was the important part, not the game itself. Sure, I enjoyed watching baseball, but my attention span wasn't long enough to really appreciate the game. But the hot dog vendors, the cheering masses, the wave, the peanuts, and my dad sitting next to me are what still stick out in my mind.

I know my dad was at the last game in Tiger Stadium, on September 27, 1999. I don't know for sure if I saw the game on television, but it seems like I did. I feel as if I watched Robert Fick hit that grand slam which would be the last hit the Stadium would ever see. But it could just be a pseudo-memory or a hope.

At the tail end of summer, Caleb, Stef and I headed into the city for Michigan and Trumbull and parked in a gravel lot right next to the stadium. I hadn't been there in years, but I still remembered the feeling of elation as the claustrophobic tunnel opened up to get a view of a bright green field and thousands upon thousands of people. This time was different, though it brought back all the same memories. Tiger Stadium was deserted as we approached the fence, the infield covered in piles of rubble ten feet high. The only part of the stadium left standing were the walls behind home plate, rising high above the refuse, gutted. It looked as if an earthquake had hit it, or a bomb. We slipped under the fence and wandered between the piles of debris towards the towering structures above. The field was covered with concrete, steel, dust and strewn among the debris were hundreds of broken seats... everywhere bright spots of blue and orange among the grey and rust-hued remains. Heading away from the rubble, the outfield was clear, clean... looking more like the field of a park than what once was an immaculately kept lawn.

Standing out there was an awe-inspiring moment, thinking about all the people who had filled the Stadium throughout the century, since before my grandparents were born. All the games it had seen, the joys, the sorrows, and simply the life that had happened.

Despite the utter destruction around me and the sadness that of what was left behind, the joy of the experience was unmistakable. I was at Tiger Stadium once more and on the field for the first time in my life. My only regret is that I hadn't brought a baseball and a bat or maybe a glove, so the field could experience baseball one last time. I'm not usually one to personify or believe in spirits or ghosts, but there is part of me that thinks it would have made a difference. Maybe some of that concrete had soaked up the experiences of the century or they had seeped into the soil I was standing upon, the ground that had been known as Bennet Park, Navin Field, Briggs Field and finally Tiger Stadium. At least, I would like to think so, because there is not much left otherwise.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Bananas

When I first found out about this method for banana peeling I was a bit skeptical, but after trying it a few times, it really is a far simpler and more effective method. It takes a little bit of getting used to, but once you get the hang out it, it's great. I've found that it's best to pinch the smaller ends of the little nub at the bottom of the banana rather than the wider part as it splits in half this way rather than into three peels.



It really makes me wonder whether I could be doing a lot of other things more efficiently

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Goobye, Seymour

Of course I don't know what to say. J.D. Salinger is dead. He died today at 91 years old. Which, is of some if only little conciliation. I'm sad, but I think I would feel much sadder if the author hadn't been trying himself to be dead to the world for the past forty something years.

Salinger was the symbol of heartfelt cynicism as both an author and as a public figure of interest. In his work he represented the rebellion and upset of an age but still imbued it with a sense of moral right and wrong. His characters rejected society because they embraced ethics; because of their own highly sensitive moral codes and compasses.

So much of what Salinger became has been represented by so little. He is a pocket in american history and literary cannon, represented by only what he would allow out into the world. What Salinger accomplished rests on a very small library of books. His death solidifies this fact. His work is a very small pin in the hinge of a very large door. Now, it seems that many an rest assured that that pin has been forged to last and be unaltered. Anything which come now will not be Salinger's. He made his stand all that time ago and choose those parts of it he wanted preserved. I can not imagine a better way to rest in peace.





(Ray, you're really all I have left.)

Monday, January 25, 2010

Calvin and Hobbes



(I still owe you one of our own Matt.)

Friday, January 22, 2010

Let's Talk About Sex

I read a rather bothersome article earlier over at details.com the gist of which was that modern conventions like the internet and picture messaging in tandem with the over saturation and acceptance of pornography in youth society has fundamentally changed the sexual experience for young people. The article is called How Internet Porn is Changing Teen Sex and you can read it for yourself here. I don't really have much to say about it, but some of the things in it really got to me. In part because it is an exposition of how sad young people can be but also because it made me examine myself as a product of my own surroundings. I hesitate to say that what is examined in the article is the mistreatment of sex because, as a product of my environment, I'm torn between belief and disbelief in the conventions of taboo. One line that I found particularly striking was this one : "it's safe to say that the first purebred guinea pig to have grown up never knowing a world without fisting on demand is probably around 22 years old." By that estimation I am one of the cantankerous old men in the world, and reflecting on the article affirmed that for more.

The article looks at how both boys and girls are now approaching sex as a result of pornography. And while this can lead to many different conversations it reminded me distinctly of one of what I have found to be the more perverse couple pairing rituals I have seen in a few years. This summer a recent high school graduate who I was working with mentioned to me that her suntan tattoo was fading. After determining what a suntan tattoo was I asked her what hers was of. She told me it was of her new boyfriends name; that when she was on Spring Break in cancun she used stickers to spell out this boys name on her body (she did not mention where) and then got a tan so that once removed his name would show up in her lighter, untanned, skin. She told that then she took some pictures with her phone so that she could show him it and that later on that, when she was back home, they had started dating. The whole thing stuck me as incredibly odd but also something more than that. Something about the implication of ownership it makes and how regressive it seems feels inherently perverted to me. But then again, maybe thats just me being a cantankerous 20+ year old. But then again, maybe I only find it so perverted because of the perverted interest I in the practice I feel when ever I happen to think about it.

“It is not human nature we should accuse but the despicable conventions that pervert it.”

Friday, December 25, 2009

Happy Christmas Mornings, Again

Friday, December 18, 2009

'67

For years I have heard the story of my father working at the Detroit Edison Electric plant at 1 Energy Way, Detroit during the ’67 Detroit riot. I think the first time I was told about it was when I was doing a family history for a school project in the fifth grade. My dad and his grandfather both worked at the Electrical plant where as my grandfather, my father’s father, worked at the water treatment facilities. Though I’ve heard the story a few times I thought that I should try to gather a more comprehensive understanding of not only the riots but also how they affected my family. Although Mark, my dad, can tell a great story it is very rare that he tells anyone anything when they ask to be told it. Before talking to my dad about what he remembers of the ’67 riots it seemed a good idea that I talk to my mother first, as she often remembers the past far better than my father and would be able to supply me with some ideas of what to ask my dad. However, talking to my mom about the riots and then my dad proved to make my understanding of their lives in 1967 much more confusing than I thought it would be. Eventually what I had initially determined would be one interview about the past became three. As I attempted to find what was true and what was the result of misremembering in my parents stories I found it helpful to also speak to one of their best friends form their youth. The three stories together all contribute to one understanding I have now, not just of the riots but also of my father, Mark.

In talking to my mom about my father during the ’67 riots I was told a truly fascinating story. “What you have to understand first,” she told me “was that nearly all the police were white.” It had been a hot summer, and in the early hours of a Sunday morning at the end of July the police raided an after hours blind pig (a speak easy.) That same morning, as my mother tells it, Mark and her brother Rick were downtown at he Grande Ballroom. On their way home their car broke down and they had to call for a ride home from my mom’s mom, Jessie. While waiting to get picked up from their broken down car Mark and Rick were warned by a stranger to get out of the city as fast as they could because something terrible was about to happen if they stayed around. Although Mark and Rick got out of the city with out much trouble not everyone was so lucky. “Things got bad very quickly,” my mom, told me, “looting and property destruction would begin in one place and move out in wave to other neighborhoods.” What was shocking to most people at the time even today still resonates about the riot was that much of it was perpetrated by blacks in their own neighborhoods. There was a sense of desperation but also mindlessness about the riots that scared everyone. By Tuesday, July 25, the National Guard occupied and closed down the city. As my mom explains it my dad was issued a Civil Defense card in order to allow him to get to work and pass through the barricades that the National Guard had put in place all over the city. The aftermath of the riots was that the city had been irrevocably changed. Not only had the demographic been altered by white flight as many of the few remaining white families left the city but also the physical layout of the city was different. My mom described this to me by saying that “the city had changed at major destruction roads were the rioting had been especially concentrated.” Entire neighborhoods had been burned to the ground during the riots. White and black owners abandoned shops that had been looted. Living in Herman Gardens, the projects nearly outside of the city, my mom can remember the sudden influx of African-American families who moved into her building as a result of losing their home during the riots. She can remember the principal of her school remarking to her mother on the furniture that was being moved into the buildings with these families; how it was so extravagant, plush, and gilded; how it was all looted goods.

Mark’s story is far less intriguing. To hear it from my father the riot didn’t really happen; or at least, not to him. When I asked Mark about the Civil Defense card he was issued during the riots he just said, “I never had a Civil Defense card.” After a long pause I asked him about what working at the Detroit Edison Electrical Plant was like during the riot and he said that he worked there in ’68, not ’67. When I asked him about the story my mom told me about his car breaking down and him having to call my grandmother for a ride and he and my uncle being warned to get out of the city he had no recollection of it ever happening. More than that he denied that it had ever happened. Mark’s story about the summer of 1967 is incredibly banal, and not just by comparison of my mother’s. In 1967 Mark claims that he worked at a automotive factory constructing 8th inch sound deadening mats out of tar and felt for the floors of cars. The detail with which he remembers this job is astounding when considering everything else he told me. I asked Mark what downtown was like, in his memory, during the riot. He told me that on the first day of the riot, Sunday, July 23rd, that the busses were still running, and that he and his best friend Kenny went down to Wayne State’s campus to see a friend of theirs. After driving around for a little while in their friends car Mark claims that they saw little more than a few tanks and a truck full of soldiers. This is entirely impossible, but so too is much and many of my father’s stories. Sensing how anticlimactic his recollection had been for me Mark apologized, again denied everything my mother had said, and suggested that I go with her story anyways, whether it was true or not.

Between these two stories I found not a single iota of similarity. No resemblance what so ever exists in what my mom told me and what my father told me about the summer of 1967 in their lives or in a wider specter of the city’s history. In order to truly understand what my parents were talking about I would have to consult someone who knew both of them at the time and also lived in the city. I got the phone number of my parents’ best friend Shirley who now lives in Texas and gave her call.

The story Shirley told me far better conformed to what my mom had told me about the riot (and my father) and also what I had already thought I knew to be true. In 1967 Shirley was in school at Cass Technical High School. “Once the riots began things in the city heated up very quickly,” Shirley said. She continued by explaining to me that the fear outside of the city was that the looting and building burning that was going inside of the city was going to spread out into the suburbs. “People were shocked of course when that didn’t happen,” she went on, “and that instead the rioters just kept burning down their own neighborhoods.” Part of fear that everyone was feeling was due in part to the fact that, unlike today, there was limited news media available dispensing information about the riots. “Radio and T.V. were really all we had for finding out what was happening and where the danger was. No one knew how far or how fast the violence was going to or had escalated,” Shirley told me when I asked her about this. After the riots had for the most part been stopped the danger did not end. Fires continued long after the troops were deployed within the city to quell the violence. “It was like a war zone in the city. Whole neighborhoods were gone already and that’s when people began to get the idea of ‘hey, I’ve got some dead property I need to get off my hands; it wasn’t much good before all this it’ll be worth even less now; I can burn it,’” Shirley went on. She described this as a prevailing sense of ‘opportunism’ that grew out of the riots. This opportunism had nothing to do with the riots, race issues and civil unrest; it was just about property values and money. What is most interesting about this to me is that it speaks to another aspect of the riot which both my mother and Shirley agreed on: the majority of the destruction was done by people who would have more to be upset about and were left with less after the riots than they had had before them. The initial outbreak of the riot was caused by social unrest in the most racially challenged city in the country at the time but the strongest effects of the violence were caused by the numerous and literal flare up of fires afterwards.

After she had described all of this to me, spoken about the riots, I asked Shirley if she could tell me about where she was during them and if she had any idea about why my father’s story was so different form my mother’s and her own. Shirley described the riots as being a period of time longer than just the last week of July that summer. She told me that that year at Cass Tech. members of the Black Panthers would come into her school and pull the fire alarm, forcing all ten floors of the building to evacuate into the streets. Afterwards the Panthers would take up fire hoses and force anyone trying to come into the building out of it. She said that when the riots started at first she felt the way she did when the Black Panthers pulled the fire alarm; she was just wanted to get out of the way and get home.

Shirley thinks that something like this same sentiment must have effect my father and that for him the riots were not as big of deal as everything else going on in his personal life was. In 1967 Mark would have been in school at Wayne State and working at his job if not a full time than nearly. He had his own problems to worry about, even if the city he lived in was burning down around him. I figure that there must be some truth in this idea. I’d ask Mark but he is just as bad at talking about himself as he is at talking about everything else I am interested in hearing about. I think that in this situation, as with most, it is best that I trust the stories I have heard about my dad rather than those he has to tell.

In my mom’s story and even in Shirley’s my dad is kind of a hero, Mark is working hard and full of determination and doing his job at a scary time, and I like that. In Mark’s story he’s barely even a character; in my dad’s story he is just some guy getting by as he waits for the future to happen to him. I must say though, that Mark is the most sure person most people will ever met and that when he knows what he wants to do is does it. And that is why when I consider these stories and how Mark’s is so unlike my mom’s and Shirley’s I am unsure if it is because his memory is humble, or if he is just not impressed by the those things he does which everyone else finds to be so impressive.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Changing Fashions

Well... I can't say I ever foresaw the day where I would be writing a BSD post about fashion, but here it is. The entire video is pretty cool in itself, but the real treat comes at the end. Just think of how much effort this will save strippers!




via Cracked.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Swiss Neutrality

In a referendum, Switzerland has banned the construction of minarets in the country. I am not going to delve too deep into how ridiculous of a step this in or the illogical arguments of those advocating this, but I simply do not see how an architectural form can increase Muslim extremism, like those arguing for this ban suggest. In fact, I can only see this ban increasing that extremism. Persecuting a group is not usually a good way to make them less extreme.

But, what really bothers me is that Europe seems to be moving more towards restricting freedoms. I'm no expert on Swiss government, but this seems to go against everything that Europe always spouts about being a free and open society. I don't want to imply that it is only Switzerland, because other European nations, notably France and Germany, have recently instituted similar rulings that are mindlessly oppressive to a minority.

Were here at BSD are, and always will be supporters of any freedom with does not infringe upon the rights of others.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving, 2009